I am in awe of how God can be so forgiving. I don't understand how it is possible for someone to know and see everything that I do and yet continue to love me more than anybody else. I know I can't say that of myself when it comes to how I feel towards others. I get so frustrated so easily and it just amazes me to think that God can sit there and have me frustrate him time and time again and yet love me so much... Thank you God. 

I just realized I never posted on here about getting my new position at work. 

I am officially a National Queue Team Specialist. How cool is that? I absolutely love it. I've been in this position since mid-November, but I'm still getting the hang of it. I really like it though. It keeps me busy which is awesome. I'm learning a lot about excel too. I have never used that program more. But yeah, I am wicked excited about being promoted. Everyone I work with is pretty cool too; which is awesome.

So I went with a friend of mine to sign up for a gym membership on Sunday. Yesterday was my first day to go and work out which was a lot of fun, except that I had a hard time with the ab machine (very disappointing). Anyways, I have today off from work so I decided I would go and work for an hour or so. I was there for at least an hour and ten minutes working out on different machines. It was good time. I love working out. It's really strange though cause I didn't really sweat much. I don't know what that means. I am sore though. Now I get to finish the dishes and clean up a bit around here. Fun, fun. :/

Okay, so yesterday I started my training class for New York camping. (I have no idea how I'm not like dead tired by now because I was up till 1 sunday night and up till after 12 last night. I'll probably crash in a couple days.) Anyways, the class has been going good so far. I really like it. It seems to be going by way too quickly though.

I was reading this book (Bad Girls of the Bible) yesterday and I was on Lot's wife. It's crazy to think about it but she just was turned into salt just because she disobeyed. It makes me so glad that I don't live back then. I was like I would have been dead a long time ago. Scary.

I need to go do something, so I feel productive. Will write more soon.

Okay, so this morning there was a meeting at church for all the volunteers, so I had to leave early to go there. Also, I had to go the bank beforehand so I could deposit my check. Course as I'm driving out of our driveway I realize that I hadn't written out my car payment yet. I hope it gets there on time. I'll have to mail it out monday morning and it'll only be 3 days before it's due. Jerin was there too. After we left church, we went over to Price Chopper so I could buy some food. Then I went to go to work. I had to get gas beforehand and then got to work. It was pretty slow most of the day. They also had me in Disney most of the time so that helps. I was at work till about 9, so I got to read some more of this book I'm reading at the moment.

I had this one guy call and I got him 2 tickets (one in the 5th row and the other in the 6th row). He wasn't gonna go at first. Then I could hear him saying to this girl if it's that good, I'll definitely go then. It was so cute. I love getting people good tickets. And I figured out some neat stuff too. I could have gone over to Tiffany's tonight cause Jon had called and said people were hanging out, but I just wnated to come home and get ready for bed. I always take forever to go to bed cause I have all these things I have to get done beforehand.

Oh, and Jerin called while I was at work saying that the Yankees lost, so we're out of the playoffs which is very sad to hear. It feels strange because I'm not used to the Yankees losing. It'll be alright though. There's always next year.

I've pretty much been on the computer since I've gotten home, but I wanted to come on here and post a little entry, so here it is.

Goodnight everyone.

Okay, so today I got to sleep in. Which was cool. I was having these weird dreams, nothing bad or anything, but when I had woken up I thought I had been asleep a lot longer.

Anyways, last night after work I had gone over to church cause they were having this meeting for volunteers for the facilities teams. I didn't even know what it was for until I got there. It was the team that called people to see who could come out and volunteer and such. Anyways, so I had this list of names to go ahead and call which I did today, so I have that out of the way. (If anyone goes to Northway, they are looking for volunteers to come help with the cleaning, carpentry work, and movers, so if you can help and need directions let me know. It's through this saturday.)

I also called my old insurance to try to take care of my hospital bill. Turns out that the hospital had the wrong id number, so that's why they couldn't get the insurance to go through. And guess what? I don't have to pay any part of the hospital bill! I was like Thank You God!  That makes things so much better for me cause I was all worried about having to pay this bill, and now I might actually be able to save some money, so I can go on a trip later if I'd like. (The only thing I would have to pay for is  the ambulance which I haven't gotten a bill for yet) So, needless to say, I am really happy about that. I also got a lot of papers out into the reclycling bin we have outside, so it's a little bit cleaner in the house. And that I am happy about. Course my room is more of a mess because I had rearranged my clothes the other day. I'll get to cleaning it, don't worry. I like it when my room looks nice even though it's not always organized as well as I'd like. I seriously need to buy a box or filing thing for all of my folders. I watched tv too... as always. They had this really touching epside on Extreme Makeover. It almost made me cry.

All in all I guess it was a productive day. Goodnight guys. I'm off to sleep.

Okay, so I have a job interview tomorrow. It's the same one I was talking about earlier with the queue position. The other day I'm walking to go back to my seat and Kristen says that she wants to set up a second interview for me.  Yay! So it's tomorrow with M.B.. I'm so excited. I don't really know what kind of questions she'll ask me so I'm a little anxious about that. I hope I do well. Please pray for me.

As for my day today...
I went in to work. I was a little late. It was raining though, so that made it a little worse. Anyways, I need to go speak to someone about Kronos (it's our timekeeping thing at work). It's fast, so it gives you penalties even when you're there on time. Anyways, so I look at my computer that I normally sit at and it's just changing colors. Like the screen would be blue and then it turn to another color and turn another color again. Really strange, so I restarted it and it worked fine. So I was glad I didn't have to move cause that would have been bad. Then I logged into the system and everything and went to go sign in. When I get back, there's an error message and it had only gone through two of the markets it was supposed to; so I had to sit there and wait for my system to load.

Then someone saw this bug and they were all "Tom, come get it.". Since I wasn't on the phone yet, I went to go see if I could but it was nowhere to be seen. So I just had to go back to my seat. At lunch I heard that Mark crushed one bug. I'm not sure if it was the same one. Who knows. I was put into Disney most of the day which was awesome. I love my Disney. Course I had a few people hang up on me and such. That's never fun at all.

After work I'm driving home and I see this guy that works with me (an older gentleman) walking the other way. I'm like hmm, should I turn around and go offer him a ride or not? I decided it was a good idea to go see. So I turn onto this side street and go back. I was like "God, please don't let there be a lot of cars behind me." And thank God there weren't. So I pull up next to him and I'm like "Do you need a ride?" He said no, he's just going over to the Stewarts across the street. So I was like alright, went over to Stewarts, turned around, and drove home. I hope he was alright.

When I got home, I pretty much just watched a lot of tv, ate, and now I"m on the computer and it's 9 something. I have to get ready for bed soon, so I'm all set for tomorrow morning. Wish me luck! I'm so excited. I really hope I get this job. Like I said, please pray for me.

Have a good night everyone!

Okay, so after church this morning (which was awesome) I went over Jerin's and, after talking to Jordan for a bit, went upstairs to find her. She's at the top of the stairs. I tell her about the new Clifton Park location for our church. It's in another gym, near another price chopper, and another chinese food place. I see a major trend here. Haha. That's so crazy. Anyways, so then she's like my mom's friend gave her all these clothes and she wanted us to look through them. I'm like sweet. So we get more free clothes. We through all of them and made two piles. One for the ones we liked. The second for ones that we didn't. So then when we were done we put the other clothes back in the bag and take our pile downstairs so we can sort them out for the two of us while watching the race.

So Kasey was starting first and Matt was I think sixth. I'm not too sure, but anyways at the begining of the race they're talking about how Matt's crew chief was saying that they didn't really have a good car, but they're going to try and get a top 10 finish. I'm like oh, boy. Matt's not usually one to do bad, so that was NOT good news. So the race starts and he slowly is going further and further back. I'm like this is not good. Then at one point he was 18th. I'm like oh, man. Kasey was doing pretty good for most of the race. Towards the end he spun out trying to get into the pit area. And he finished 33rd. Matt finished 23rd. So, needless to say, it was a bad day for both our drivers. And to top it off Tony Stewart won. Now, I wouldn't have a problem with Tony except that he acts very childish and says there's something wrong with him in the head and makes jokes about drivers and such. So if you're a Tony fan, sorry. But just look at how he acts. Anyways, so the race was not enjoyable.

Good thing is I got some new clothes. Now I have to wash them and try them on to see how I like them. Then I got home and my parents were watching The Jungle Book which I was thinking about watching today. I'm not sure if I will or not. I might cause I don't really have anything else to do the rest of the night; unless something better is on tv.

Yesterday I went over to Dawn's house in the evening. Jerin came with me. We watching The Little Mermaid and then we watched Beauty and the Beast. It was a lot of fun. We have some candy and made cookies. Then we had Dawn read to us from her collection of writings. I love her writing. It's so cool. Before we had gone over there I was just at home. I did get a lot of things done though. I finished all the laundry and the dishes, so I was quite happy. And my room's pretty clean too.

Since the last time I've written on here I still haven't heard anything back from work about that Queue position I was talking about. I really hope I get it. Like really hope I get it. We'll see what happens. I have to call my old insurance company tomorrow to see about my lovely bill I have. Hopefully they won't give me any problems with it. That would be a total pain. Oh, and I got pulled over last week so in about 15 days I'm due in court to speak with a judge. That'll be interesting. I hope he's nice. I was saying to Jerin: "Atleast I can say I went to court before I was 21.", and not even because I did anything wrong.

Despite everything I am loving my life right now though. There's a lot of good things going on in it. I'm trying to concentrate more on that than on all the bad things. It's really hard though cause I find I get discouraged very easily. I almost forgot to mention I went shopping on friday after work. I came home and Jerin came over. Then we both headed over to the mall. I had to go to Old Navy to see if I could exchange this one pajama pant I had bought there a while ago. It got a hole in it from when I ripped the tag. The manager there let me exchange it which was cool. Course they didn't have the same pant, so I had to get a different one which is alright, but I don't love it. I don't know if I'm keeping it or not yet. I'll have to wear it for a little bit and see if I like it or not. Who knows. I have more important things to worry about before that though.

That's all for now... hope you guys are have a great day!

Okay, so I've pretty much been working a lot since I switched to full time. I have gone to a Nascar race though which was awesome. Jerin and I left on saturday the 16th of september and went over to her uncle's house. Then Sunday morning we woke up and left by 7:30 to go to the race which the drive was supposed to be an hour I think. I don't even remember when we got there, but we were driving on the shoulder cause there was so much traffic. Anyways we had an awesome time there. It was so much fun. Got like a ton of pictures. They're pretty much all up on facebook if you would like to look.

I'm feeling a little guilty right now though. Is it wrong to not want to be a part of something that you don't get a lot from? Especially when this activitiy is supposed help you? I don't think so, but it's making me feel bad for not wanting to be a part of it. I don't know. I hate being vague about things but I don't want people coming on here and getting upset about things that are said. I've had that happen to me before, and it was not fun, so yeah. Anyways, work has been going really good lately. I applied for the Queue position which I'm not sure if I'm going to get or not. I hope I do. That would be an awesome job. I really don't like not knowing things though. Let's hope.

I have so many things to get done. I wish so much life could just be simple sometimes. But it's not, so I just have to deal with it. I'm off to get ready for bed, so I'll write more later.   

Okay, I just need to get this off my chest. I can't stand it when someone puts someone else or some organization down. Especially when they have nothing valid to say. I don't know why people think it's okay to put others down. I cannot stand being around people like that. I just want to leave. I fear so much that I'll turn into somebody like them if I'm around them all the time. I don't want to be the kind of person who's always saying something bad about others. I try to always look at the positive things about somebody. Not to say that I don't get annoyed at people or anything like that, but I try not to put people down when I'm either talking to them or talking about them. Things like that drive me nuts!

I'm not feeling too much better even after writing this, but I know it's good to get stuff like that off your chest. If you're somebody who's like that, please just keep your opinions to yourself. I don't want to hear about them.